I didnt do well on our team report, it's very sorry for other team mates.....but I think they will forgive me, we are friends!

I think I am a fool now...I have nothing now....I am a fool!

I need him now, I thought that there is another person for me, but now, I think I just want him.

woo, I finished my big test!!!!! though it doesnt very good.... but I am so happy to leave the test stuff until the score shown...........

I am BACK!!!!!!

The day after yesterday(4.4) is the day to celebrate for kids. Is it same in USA? whatever, everything was just sweet and warm in that day. But in the last two classes, everything just turned the direction. My chinese teacher told me that my personality is so HARD, stubborn... he said that it not just often hurt others it hurt myself, too. I usually talk to my grandfather, and I often advise him to change his  personality, because he is always lives in his mind. he never, ever told us about his feelings. He wanted to pretent that he is solemn. Everyone said that I look like my grandmom very much, but now, I just think that I am like my grandfather, stubborn and independence. I know it hurt others very often because I hardly say sorry if I was wrong, I dont know why. I just dont want to say sorry to others. I like my chinese teacher, but he said that things, I dont know how to face him now.... I still like his class like before.... but cant I keep my this hard personality, should I change this? I want to be lovely, too. but I am not sure that I can change my personality. Butta it's great that some one advise to you, I think he wants me to be better. This is a lesson, I think!

I feel so so so lonely recantly. I want to talk someone, this is the only wish that I have ever wanted. I check my friendsship list in my mind......

1)Teata(x)..she's busy, 2)Roy(x) busy, 3)Yogi(x) too far:( and she gets her new life and friendship! 4)Brandon(x) not get together for too long, 5)Angela(x) she gets a boyfriend, so busy now I think, 6)Ninana (x) just dont fit, 7)Rose(x) she is much busier! 8)parents(x) I am not used to talk to them that deep, they dont understand, they just dont. 9)tblog(o) it'll be the best!

After my chinese teacher said that to me, I dont feel confident anymore. But I did. I cried in the moment when he was saying that for me, but I think no one saw that. Only two drops, I think I am much stronger that before..ha I think! posting post makes me feel better(I think I wont cry tonight). I think there must be somebody listen to me......right?

okay, I am going to do math work, actually I am good at math. these days I did lots of math, this is the only way to make me happy now..;( strange but it make me think that I still can do something!

recantly, I heard from someone about one horrible thing! A girl who hated (hates) me she burned my thing..... it's incredible and nonsence, I dont know why she did these things. But she always says that everyone in class should be friends and dont have any fright. Everything she did was just oppsite! I dont know what she is thinking., but she told me that I "am" her friend now! confused now!!! I quit hating her because I realized that she didnt do anything but we just hate her. Though that my friends still hate her, and still always say something bad about her. I listen to them, but I just say what I am thinking about, not like what I used to be! I try to make the friendship between me and her, but I dont think it's important anymore, just let it be!

I will post few until June, because I get a big test on the end of May. I need to prepare it! It's very uncomfortable not to post on tblog, because posting is the only way to unleash my feelings, but now, I really really dont have time. Everyday(only without sleeping time)= STUDYING! wow, it's tired but nothing for complaining! brcause IT'S JUST LIFE! I just got the package from Yogi. there are a box of chacolate and a gray pouch. It's so sweet to get it in the tiring day. I eat a chacolate each day, it's make me relax a lot, just give me the power for another two hours studying time!

I have to stay in school everyday for studying until 9 pm, and when I get to buy somthing to eat, I take out my pouch I feel warm.. Just like she is around me..pray for me and give me power again. Recently, I failed a English certification. but everyone pass :(((( it's sooo sad, I couldnt stand anymore, so I cried in school, I think I cried is not because I failed, is because that everyone give me so much presure... so I need one minute to put down all my feelings! And I am ok now, I can keep my work! ;) it's jenice!

my parents had a hug fright, and both my sister and brother dont know that, they werent at home that moment. I felt so great that they two werent home. I heard their voice got bigger, but I dont know what can I do, I just sat there listened and until they noticed me, they stopped, is it because me? I am not sure. But next day, they went out late, and with a big happy smile came back... It's so  complicated between adult. whatever they get together again!

Recently, I just have so many problem, trouble and presure, but I think I can handle it! NOTHING CAN BEAT JENICE DOWN!

I dont know when I will post next time, but hope everyone can still view my blog...:) peace out! and Good Luck! jenice love you guys.

okay, I quit thinkink o f him and falling in him! ..........I Q-U-I-T!

it's over over over over over over

O-V-E-R

"Love is friendship on fire"  somenoe had said 

I dont agree with it! Everytime you wish it, everytime you lose!